:) happy happy sad

Yeah so anthonys leaving july 20th from here & he leaves from des moines or fort dodge the 21st of july. & then he goes 2 pensacola florida for 14 weeks to go to school.. he's going to be part of communication on the boat...
by then ill be 16... :)
oh, and everything between him & me is just us now. she finally gave up & left! except he called me last night and was bawling cos she wont let him see alex. she cant do that.. bitch...
& now im bored........................ :/ blahhh and tired...
damn..

:)

2 years, 6 months and 30 days till i can get the hellll out of here!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!
actually 6 months and 30 days till i can but uhmmm.. idk if thats gonna be possible...
i want it 2 be but ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh noo, it wont..
and i wanna leave!
i HATE IT HERE! 3/4 of every1 here hates me! and the people that dont dont rly like me... like they tolerate me but... other than that... idk. and i hate my teachers, omg i soooo wanna piss them off SOOOO BAD. but if i do, then ill get iss and i dont rly want 2 because the only classes i like ryt now r chorus and band. only if we aren't doing nething that is. so kisner hates our class, and i almost got kicked out 4 hitting rafael, so im lyk ok, sorry, so i walk back 2 my seat and kick him cos she nvr sed nething about kicking! and then she's lyk anna go.. and the bell rings.
in lew's class im ok, but i dont rly talk 2 ne1, n i sit by corey n robert n corey pisses me off. robert freaks me out, omg i hate ruby, especially wen she goes dictator on us... god damn... awe is ok, kara is a fucking nerd, and then me. im the 1 no1 talks 2, the 1 that sits by her "friends" but doesnt talk, the one that looks ok half the time but rly isnt, the 1 one that wen she's actually happy, people start wondering whats wrong, the one that gives up 2 easily and cant fucking take peoples fucking bullshit nemore.
ermmm i hate my paws/e.h room it pisses me off.
chorus is ok wen wer singing good songs or songs that r fun, like 4 autumn leaves we sang "Breathe" by Faith Hill and that's my boyfriends and my song cos wer both in chorus n well.. wen ur watching the video of the show wer always looking at each other...
band is ok wen wer playing fast songs, theres this song thats lyk 2 pages 4 me 3 pages 4 other ppl n 4 pages 4 some people. it sucks. i hate it. but i sit in front of Him, and i sit by trisha so im good. i have lindsay trisha and anthony in that class that i can talk 2. oh, and Kaitlyn. ELEPHANT!!!!!!!!! :)
ermmm i hate algebra. my teacher pisses me off sometimes, uhhhhhhhh i sit by sam chrissy and kaitlyn, but i can text so im good
uhmmm history? yeah, i soooooooo am not gona fucking miss that class.. its ok but i sit by elise and she pisses me off. DONT FUCKING LECTURE ME ABOUT IT OK?! Y THE FUCK DO U FUCKING CARE?!?!'
AGE DOESN'T FUCKING MATTER! GROW A PAIR OF BALLS N GROW THE FUCK UP!
anyways...
omg, bakers. yeah im so not gonna miss that class.. i fucking HATE HIM! and whatever her name is thats in his class! fucking bitch! i cant stand his class!
english... yeah.. im sooooooooooo not gonna miss her....
shes making us read fucking romeo and fucking JULIET. I HATE IT. ITS SO FUCKING GAY!!!!!!!!!!!! literally! like if it was a person, it would totally buttfuck a guy! AND LIKE IT!
the most homework i get is in spanish algebra and english. if i cld get rid of those classes i would.
like i cld srsly go w/ Anthony 2 his base and live w/ him i wld. id be better off there! no fucking potheads 2 deal w/ and im fucking safer there, than i am HERE. assholes...
but ohh fucking no. i cant go cos ill "miss my family" and "miss my friends" yeah, ill miss meighan n gma n noah n my close family, but uhm, WHAT FUCKING FRIENDS R U FUCKING TALKING ABOUT U CRAZY!
no i wont miss ne1 but family n a few ppl but thats it. and IDFC IF I AM IN CALIFORNIA! or south carolina. which i like better... and in cali i have a cousin there...
I WANNA LEAVE! I WANNA GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!
i wanna be with him...
we wer watching broken bridges 2day.. yeah notttttttttt the best movie 2 watch.. but he bought it 4 me.. and we both started crying.... he's lyk u just hadddd 2 watch it.. n im lyk hey.. ur the 1 that told me 2...
n the little 1 is gettin soooo big...
so he had just got done changing the baby's diaper, and i was holding him cos he had 2 go talk on the phone w/ his mom 4 sum reason that i 4get y, n me n mom wer watching this video http://video.yahoo.com/network/100284668?v=4533761&l=3774753
and alex is laughing cos of the song n me n mom r laughing at the lady driving n anthony comes in and starts looking @ me weird. so i go back n sit by him after the video was over n i had alex sitting on my lap n i look in the glare on my laptop n im like wow. n he's like yeah... i was waiting 2 c what u wld do. n im lyk yeah... n mom walks out n hes lyk just think if u wer preg n im lyk that can be arranged. n he's lyk hahahahaaaaaaaaaa NO! not yet.. wait a lil bit... n im lyk it'd get us 2gether faster n he's lyk true.. but wer already 2gether... n he's lyk uk what i mean.. n im lyk yeah ik. and id rather b 21 or so b4 i do... n he's lyk yeah.. ik.
so he leaves in august 4 9 weeks of training... n im lyk super scared and freaked... n i understand y he wants 2 and im ok w/ it cos ill stand behind him or beside him or WTFE U WANNA CALL IT, even tho i may think its wrong cos im that type of person. w/e he's gonna do im gonna be there...
and the best part? well the 2 best parts? wen i get 2 go c him, i may getta miss school, it wont be near here, and fuck i getta fucking see him! :) and wen he's done w/ training he's considered a deadly weapon.
and idk... i guess id go w/ him werevr.... i'd do it cos well... i love him

omg

So one of my classmates is about to lose his mom or already has.
She had a heartattack this morning, and they're doing a lot of tests on her or did and she's practically brain dead. and now i feel rly bad cos idk... its one of my boyfriends best friends...

anyways...
So i got 2 talk 2 my boyfriend 4 a lil bit.. then he went 2 bed... he worked till close last night and had 2 be up at 530 this morning so im letting him sleep. he's either gonna be up at 9 or at 630...

i want skittles rly bad right now... i havent had any in a few days... ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i choke on them all the time.. i dont choke on nething else but skittles... i choke on small things... hahaha i could get so personal and perverted right now but i wont...

so im gonna talk about ufo girl. bee. so brooklyn calls me, and shes like OMG THERES A UFO OUTSIDE!!! n so i look outside n theres nothing there, n shes like look outside in the back n im like HELL NAW! I COULD GET OBDUCTED! and i just dont like going outside in the back at night its kinda creepy...
i was out there one time and i was sitting on my trampoline b4 it broke n i heard a freaky noise...
and dont get me started about the fighting coons and the squirrels...
altho wen im at my gmas house i'll go outside and carry a gun, a flashlight and sometimes a knife... who knows what can happen in the boondocks.. lol

SOOO...

So...
I'm kinda in love with an amazing guy.... And his baby is a part of my life now 2.
Yeah, I'm 15. so fucking what. got a problem with it?
well... i dont. and uk, i hate how old people diss my boyfriend because he has a kid, yeah, he was 17 wen he was born, so? he's a great dad. And uk, it pisses me off that they say that because uhm, when they wer that age, they wer having kids...
AGHHH I JUST GOT UP FOR THE 10TH FUCKING TIME!!! AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH do it urself...
and now he's not talking to me because his phone either died or he's doing his online class... damnit!! its been 2 fucking hours give it up!
im so fucking bored now... theres nothing 2 fucking do around my house.. ive been stuck here 4 the past 3 weeks with nothing 2 fucking do....ughhh...
i hate this... im so damn bored.... im watching h2o or something on nick.... its very interesting...

goiiiiiiiihhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy

Ok, so i have no clue what i just sed.. but ok...
so my friend is coming over 2morrow... so i had 2 clean all day...
so i did... and my little brother TRASHED THE SUNPORCH! im just like WTF! n my moms like noah clean it up n hes like NO! n shes like ok! anna u need 2 finish cleaning this up! n im like IT WASN'T EVEN ME! WTF IS UR PROB?!
so now im sitting upstairs....
being bored...
hehe i cant wait till 2morrowwwwwwww..
sooooooooooo...
i still wanna race.. thats a very touchy subject 4 me 2 talk about...
i think im gonna go take a shower.. nice warm bubbly shower... i hate baths... they kinda freak me out.. theyre not hot tubs cos theres no swirling jets and super hot water... and the water turns gray after a bit in my bath... idk y... maybe cos i like the bubbles overflowing so i can attack ne1 who walks in the bathroom...
ok, i sound like a freaking FIVE YEAR OLD. what the hell. oh well. sometimes i think i have the mind of 1...
well.. thats what i do.. i was sitting in my bathing suit (dont ask me y.. i was seeing what it would do after it got wet..) in the bath, and i had the bubbles up around my head, n my little brother walked in the bathroom, and i jumped out at him, and OMG he screamed his head off... it was hilarious... and priceless... see.. told u i think i have the mind of a 5 year old....
the mind of a 5 year old, the maturity of a 20 year old the body of a 15 year old... ok.. that works........... id b like 40 if u add that 2gether.. haha. wen im 60 or 80 i hope to scare the piss out of all little kids.. i wanna b 1 of those old ladies that is like creepy, but awesome uk? yeah... well.. ima go take my shower now. ttyl!

I'm sorry...

im sorry corey.. very, very sorry.
i dont hate u.
opposite of that, ur like a brother 2 me, and ik i hurt u sometimes. and i hate doing that because it hurts me...
sorry.

tell me what u want...

and you aint gonna get it!
sooooooo...
whats up?

yeah.. thats a cool shirt.. its not even mine.. hehe. hahaaaaaaaaaa i stoled it from u anthony... actually.. u have 2 of my shirts that i want the vb 1 back.. unless ur actually gonna wear it... :) anyways...............
i have a perty ring.. its perty. wanna c it?
welll... u cant...
cos i kinda caint get the damn picture to come up on here...
but its pretty....
so ill get a pic later....
hahaaaaaaaaa.
tanner, u saw nothing...
heather.. u saw nothing either....
hehe...