American Dream

soooooooooo... im soooo messed up...
I got my hair cut and colored 2day... and well.. its uhm... orange and red... : )
atleast anthony didn't kill me like he sed he would have if i dyed it black w/ purple and blue chunks in it... hehehe.
And now its almost one o'clock and how the hell im gna survive 2morrow is above and beyond me... im going 2 des moines 2morrow w/ delaney elise and katherine, and i think that wer gonna look weird because wer all different people but elise and delaney r like close and me n katherine r close just because wer crazy weird like that and if it was me elise and delaney, i would end up by myself because they r like close... its fucked up.
but true... and anna is not going 2 swim 2morrow... nope no fucking way.
D':
thats my mood right now
>:-@
thats also my mood.... so im going 2 go 2 bed b4 i hurt sum1...

somewhere

Somewhere deep inside that place there’s sum1 looking 4 me
Someone who is gonna hurt me
Maybe help me
And I’m addicted to all the things that you do
I just might be a natural disaster waiting 4 u

And I don’t feel anything that you do
Im one of the people that don’t feel





yes i am a very weird person... :) i like the way i am thank u very much... and im still thinking of becoming a neonatal nurse... idk y... and yes i do think deep...

Thats what you get.....

When u let ur heart win!!

and sometimes that is a very good thing.. other times u just wanna like.... DIE... but i PROMISE it will sumhow get better. idk wen, and idk how cos im not a freaking fortune teller, but it will...

i had my fortune told once, and it told me i was gonna get married wen i was 23, have 4 kids and a step son (how ironic if u think about it) have a good life and die wen i was like 80 something...

too weird..

yeah... its true... it happened :) and im kinda sorta extremely glad it did.... :D ily :)

idk...

Kiss me in the rain
never let me go
tell me that you love me
just so i know

stupid random poem i just made up. seriously like a minute ago... now thats talent :)
and this stupid person i do not talk 2 nemore is talking 2 me and texting me! NOW I NEED A NEW PHONE NUMBER!!!!!!!!!!! ugh.... and a new phone... i hate using my moms phone...

yeahh im still oh so very bored.... lets see.. random things i can talk about... hehehehehe
idk... i'm a very random person that reads a lot and i dont know anymore... dangit.

I'm the girl u'll never be, only cos thats just me, so suck it up and get a life before i stab u with that pretty knife....

ok thats just a little creepy.... HAHAH im a freak... in the sheets... OH! did i just go there? yeah, i went there!
haha. funny story... i called sum guy a freak, n hes like in the sheets! and im all oh? lets go see! and hes like OK! and im like NOOOOOOOOOOOO!! not rite now!! maybe later anthony!!!
it was pretty funny...

So, can't u see? that that girl in the camo sweater and camo pants loves that boy in the camo pants and red and black plaid shirt? they were (m e a n t t o b e) so dont ruin it, stand back and watch them shine, because this just might last (f o r e v e r)

ok, that one sucked... basically all i'm tryin 2 say is that i love him and he loves me and hunting is AWESOME and 2 get away from us so we can be together...

basically. :) yes i am a dork... not a whale penis tho... :D hehehe. i'm stupid... sumtimes...

SO...

I'm actually happy 4 once. like seriously... I'm going shopping 2morrow, i think with delaney... haha. I'm like really bored though and should probably be cleaning...
That's all i do. clean.. seriously all i ever do... I dont go places unless its with my family, i stay home and clean.... but i get on the computer instead of clean.. And yes i am weird, go ahead say im weird... i will call u a psycho that was a waste of sperm. And yes i've sed that many times be4. Thats Katherine. and y is there a blue underline?? WHAT THE HECK!?!?! anyways that's coreys gf, my locker mate/bestfriend . who i also tell most of my stuff too.. hehe. i'm going to go clean now and wonder y i have 2 much shit in my house... later. Oh man do i hate laundry... :(

I am confused...

idk what i wanna be....
I first started out as a veterinarian, then for a short while fire fighter, (this was wen i was like 7) and then back 2 vet, and it stayed that way until now... im thinking of becoming a pediatric nurse and getting my BSN then my RN (registered nurse) then working up to getting my CPN (certified pediatrician nurse) but i wanna work w/ babies in the pediatric unit... not like an ob gyn EW but like i like working w/ animals but i dont wanna like work on them.... idk y but the thought of putting them down doesn't bother me, but surgery does. idk.... im confused.. HELP!! plz?

It rains in ur bedroom...

And for once, only 1 thing is wrong! normally its EVERYTHING is wrong. but now? since alex is here? only 1 thing is wrong. well.. actually 2 things... he was born with a cough, a low grade fever, and and very high heartbeat.. so they put his head in the bubble.
the other thing that is wrong, is that idk what Anthony is doing..... cos like he's happy 4 once, and i dont want him 2 stay with the dumb bitch... aka sarah just because of alex... i want him 2 choose who he wants 2 be with.... aka ME! haha. but idk whats going 2 happen, and right now im happy and NOT CRYING i cry all the time... idk y.. its just sumthing i do... maybe i have 2 much salt in my body so instead of sweating i cry it out.. there we go.. thats a good explaination... ok not rly..
so im counting all the change in my coca cola glass, and so far i have $21 in quarters... wowwwwwwwwwww.... one time i had like $25 in quarters it was pretty cool. im bored can u tell? yeahhhhhhhhh so far this blog is a piece of crap....
so lets talk about sumthing less like crap.. uhmmmmmm any ideas any1?

Alexander Ryan Martinez

Alex was born at 4:13 AM on December 20th 2008. At washington county hospital. He weighed 7 pounds 13 ounces and he's 19 and 3/4 inches long. And he's the most adorablest baby in the world!!!

This is ME

Hey I'm Anna! I love racing. I love diet coke, animals, my kinda boyfriend, (I'll explain more later) my best friends, my family, animals. I'm a very complicated person sometimes. Sometimes I'm not a complicated person. Communication is what I do A LOT. I text a lot, email a lot, TALK a lot.

Well, like I said, I would explain more later! So It's later now SO I'll start explaining!
Well, racing is a big part of my life, I watch NASCAR Sprint cup ALL the time, so Sunday is a bad day to do things with me when it's racing season. My driver is Jimmie Johnson, then Carl Edwards. And no I DO NOT own Lowe's just because Lowe is my last name doesn't mean I own any part of Lowe's I shop there a lot, but I DO NOT own it! SO THERE!
Yes I have been frequently called redneck, and hick, and no it doesn't bother me.
So now about the kinda boyfriend... Well... He's currently at the hospital in the pregnancy ward because his girlfriend is in labor... And yes I said his GIRLFRIEND... Not for long whore... NOT FOR LONG. Yes I do love him dearly... SO THERE! And that's all you need 2 know about that! And the best smelling cologne is Avatar! LIKE OMG! It smells REALLY good....
I'm currently on break, hating high school..... lol
Uhm.... My dad has a rat at his shop named ratatouille that he found yesterday. That thing creeps me out... I used to love mice and rats and other vermin but now? uhm.... idk actually because it is a cute rat... lol.
anyways im really boredddddddddddd :) missing my love and talking to him. apparently since i couldn't/wouldn't go over to his house at 3-ish 2day Casey went over there and they wer talking about me. freaky? yes. very. very freaky. lol. cos my love was like "yeah i wanna be w/ this girl, but because of alex and that bitch i can't be w/ her and i hate it soooo much" that was close 2 what he sed... but not exactly. but still.... its what he sed....
then he started crying which made me start crying... hehe. and then i asked him if he remembered the first couple of times we wer talking about baseball and alex and what'll happen after he's born and we started crying cos we wer so confused?
yeah... well... we still are.... but i think that after Alex is born it'll be better, because then there will be the basketball games and school 2 occupy me, at the basketball games i hide from ppl, threaten people then go leave. :) thats my life! i play 4 pep band. its pretty fun. we hardly ever play tequila tho... :'( which really sucks cos wen we practiced it in band every1 yelled either censored everclear tequila or sum other brand of alcohol. hehe. its pretty fun.
then i am in concert band where i sit by Trisha who plays the trumpet, and in front of Anthony and Chelsey who play the tenor sax and in front/near ruger who plays the trombone and ryan who plays the annoying tuba ish thing. and i play the bass clarinet... hehe that thing is my baby. i like playing the low notes. cos they r 1) low 2) im the only player of the bass clarinet 3) i actually play a noticeable part in sum songs
Overall im a crazy person who drinks WAY too much diet coke, chews wayyyyyyyy too much gum, loves a guy who is confused about what to do, has a couple of close friends, is psychotic and has a lot of loving family members, with guns. hehehe always remember boys, GUNS, oh yeah, my older brother and kinda-ish-boyfriend want to know if u can run 850 ft per second. No? oh, i suggest not hurting/pissing me off in anyway then.